Four weeks into weights and, I'm delighted to say, I'm seeing improvement.
Physically, my body is changing and my arms and beginning to muscle up again as I continue to lift. Mentally, however, the last four weeks have been something of a roller-coaster ride for me as I battled with Showcase stress and a little niggle in the back of my head regarding my weights program. I love my weights, don't get me wrong, but there have been times (many of them, actually) when I wondered if I should be doing this program at all; that maybe I was biting off more than I could chew and I should have stuck with my original plan of getting back into weights in 2019.
Then Pat (the most amazing trainer, mentor and friend) posted the following regarding his journey, and I thought I'd share it with you all, as it has really helped me move on from that place and re-focus my journey.
It's never about being perfect.
Perfection is subjective and, as a result, ultimately unattainable. Progress, however, it ongoing, real and can be measured and celebrated. As I read further on, this jumped out at me as well.
What do I want to be known for?
It's not the weight, it's not the physique, it's about progressing to a happier stronger life.
And the final piece that made me stop, think and reflect on what it is I want, why I am doing this program and what is important to me.
When you can look in the mirror and identify with yourself that the reason why you are not where you want to be is because of you, it will allow you to move forward. It's confronting, but I refuse to live the next ten years of my lift letting that voice in my head tell me what I can't do.
Somewhere along the line, in the midst of Showcase and starting this lifting program I lost my way and started chasing perfection. But I'm refocusing my energies now on what I truly want: progress. Because, between the unattainable subjective that is perfection and the recognisable measurement that is progress, I know which one I'd rather have.
You don't find the willpower - you create it.
Me With No Apologies.